How weird is it that Jen has an entry up that speaks to me at this very moment? I already left her a comment about the interesting timing of both of our entries. Very interesting.

But she's right. I'm only last if I let myself be last.

So - here's a note.

I'm going to be first, dammit. Or you can kiss my ass!

Well. Maybe not first, but I'm not going to be last anymore. That's for darn tootin'!

Posted by: Pandora - 07.06.2005 - 12:07am - Permalink - Comments (2)
Posted in: General

So - you think you've managed to get over it, but - no. It remains. Or - returns. Or comes anew.
A dark pain that slices into your soul - one you thought you could deal with.

But apparently not.

Finding that you are being put off, ignored, left til last is never a good feeling. And I find that I wish that just once - I could come first. For something besides my mom and dad. I know I come first for them. I'm their kid. Of course I do. But can't I be first for someone else? Can't I be the one who gets to hear all the stories? Get all the messages, the emails, the phone calls?

I suppose it's in the stars that I am just the one who gets to be the one turned to when all else fails. The one to be cried on, to comfort. But never to be loved.

I've known this was my place for years.

Why does it still hurt?

Posted by: Pandora - 07.05.2005 - 11:07pm - Permalink - Comments (1)
Posted in: Thoughts

Take it. You know you want to.
(It was seriously fun. (= )

Posted by: Pandora - 06.30.2005 - 8:06pm - Permalink - Comments (1)
Posted in: General

So - I've upgraded to WordPress 1.5.1.3 - or something like that. ::chuckles::

I had to seriously tweak the index file to make it a 'theme' file. XD
If something looks wonky - PLEASE leave me a comment and tell me. Blergh. I'm currently on the look out for a new one. ::sigh:: I don't think I can write it myself. php and I are NOT friends. :/

We'll see. I guess. (;

Anyway.

- Update -
I've always installed something called Spam Karma - to try and keep out the spammy-comments.
Sooooooo . . . if your comment gets eaten . . . just email me . . .
burn @ evanescing.org

Posted by: Pandora - 06.30.2005 - 5:06pm - Permalink - Comments (0)
Posted in: Bloggy

So, I emailed one of the organizers of the Blogathon.org/">Blogathon and told her I'd volunteer to be a Site Monitor. I mean, honestly, what else am I going to do for 24 hours? ^___^

So, she assigned me to the 'They Might Be Site Monitors' team. I need to find my They Might Be Giants CD so I can listen to it incessantly. ^_______^
The team leader for the team is a guy by the name of Chris. I went by his blog and left a note. Should be a fun time for all, eh?

Oh. D! Get your butt in here. You know you have to do a guest post or two on this thing!

Anyway. Update-a-roony.

Posted by: Pandora - 06.30.2005 - 2:06pm - Permalink - Comments (1)
Posted in: Thon 05